Lolas Private Hotline (continues)

“well” i finaly said “you are so stunnig good looking, with long dark brown hair, which i like alot, girls with long hair turns me on alot, aswell as beautyful eyes, your eyes makes me smile”
“what can you tell me more” Lola said, her voice was so wonderful, sexy and sweet, i had to pick my cock out and start touching my self a bit while speaking to her.
“you have a beautiful face, your lips is magic, i wish i once in this life could kiss you, i have never kissed a girl ever, allways wanted you to be the first one, my fantasy”
“wow” Lola said with a stunning voice of surprise, “ you never kissed a girl Mike?”
“no, never don’t know what it feel’s like, it’s a shame i feel a shamed about it, but it’s the truth” i felt dumb fooled, for letting her know that, now she never gonna see me like a man, just as a boy who failed to be a man.
“aww sweety, Mike don’t feel like that, i am sure there are alot of girls out there who would die to be the first to kiss you” i had lost intresst in my cock, i felt just empty now, coz she must know now that i am virgin, her voice had changed abit, not sexy, more surprised voice, someone who was wondering and had alot of quesions instead of trying to seduce me.
I tried to speak again, but couldn’t get a word out, just some grunting, “Mike?” Lola said, “how are you?”
“f..fii..fine” i finaly got out after an uncomfortable silance.
“you sound sad Mike?”
“Well i have never had a girlfriend, thats why i am calling here, allways wanted to speak to a girl and be me, dirty or not, just get everything i have inside me out without feeling bad about it, let a girl know and see me for me, i never talked to a girl before like this, its diffrent, hard for me”
“Mike you still horny?” “not really” i said with a low voice, “try to see me again, touch your self, grab you cock i am gonna try help you feel good about your self, could you do that for me Mike?”
“I suppose” i reached down inside my boxers again, grabbed on to my cock, touching it a bit feeling it grow inside my hand, i was Obviously still horny, it felt good to feel it grow, got me even more horny than before, as i was to pick it out to start jerk off i heard someone coming, and let the cock go to pull my hand out of my boxers fast and at the same time said on the phone “Lola someone is coming i have to call you back later” and i hanged up, i heard she was about to say something but i didnt wait for it, i was to afraid to let someone find out what i was doing.
My family was home….

A few days went by and all i could think of was the next time i could call Lola, i soo wanted to speak to her, hear her voice talking to my ear, touching my inner self, my brain, my feelings, my nerves. Giving me the thrill her voice gave me. I was so horny, she made me horny, her long hair, her beutiful eyes, my dirty toughts I had, I often fantasied about her sucking my dick, her lovley lips around my long hard cock, giving me the ultimate pleasure, so i tought anyway, since i obvisouly never had had sex with a girl, it all was in my mind, my imagination. Spinning around my head.
I still lived with my mom and my sisters kid, and my 18 years old sister, even she have had sex by now, but i hadn’t, 30 years old and still a virgin, seemed pretty lame, childish, felt like a boy when girls came around.
My life was about pleasure my self while watching porn, i love watching porn, looking at the girls, fucking and riding the guy, sucking him dry. It was a way for me to express my feelings toward a girl, well even if she didn’t see me or heard me, i just wanted to feel something belive i could pleasure a girl even if it only was in my mind.

I had a hard time finding my own time when i could be alone, since the house almost allways was crowded, so i couldn’t call her, not even touch my self. At nights i could but i was often to tired to pleasure my self, so i got a bit frustrated about it sometimes.

(to be continued)

The perfect girl ever? for me, hell yes!!

…i think i never seen anyone ever so beautiful as her…she made my heart stop and flat line for good.. wish i knew her name or even better knew her in real life.

This is just pure goddess, perfect human being =) thank you for giving me the pleasure and opportunity of laying my eyes on you, appreciate it, thank you woman!

thank you thank you thank you….sometimes i wonder if god is a women for bringing us men such beautiful creatures??

doesn’t matter if she is blue eyed or brown, even tho I prefer brown, which happen to be her natural color it seem =)

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How sexy can Panties be?

…quite sexy actually, I like it, even tho i prefer diffrent types of thongs..

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lost in translation…

…so things are back to normal, we got water in the house finaly!! feels good, our connection still sux, which now is like something normal, you can’t trust the provider…they came by to fix the connection and tv today and fucked it up even more, my sister lost her picture on tv, and the Inet doesnt work anywway… waiting for them to come back again in 2 weeks!! well Normal aswell…. Comhem SUX!!

I think i am lost in translation between a man and a woman… i just does’t seem to understand how to find a gf…even a female friend really… well i am good at getting the answer..used to be…”you are only my friend we won’t ever be more than that” well thats is what i usually get, or used to get when i still belived i had a chance with the ladies 😀

these days i only dream about them and the family i once wanted =)

time to sleep, got work tomorrow.. so my fellow ppl out there, good night where ever you are… and good morning Asia!! =)

This woman will be in my dreams tonight…so beautiful like a dream come true 🙂 “dreaming out laud”

love Asia love women

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Male Nympho?

..Sometimes I wonder If i am a Male nympho somehow, or if it’s just lack of female attention, coz i am constant horny, just a few times during the past 2 years i lost the lust of sex, due to the fact taht i got raped by a big drunk girl, when i was still a virgin, was in total chock tath night and paralized… aswell, an other happening that i don’t wnat to talk about much.

How come female friends, can take pictures of each other, naked pictures play with each other and just tease and have fun, squeeze one other boobs, and just live the sexuality out some how? somtimes i wish i had a friend like that(female ofc. DOH!) a dare devil who could do stuff like that to tease me and pleasure me some how, touch me.

I still looking for love, and affection, attention from a girl, i am 32 and never really had sex, i dont know what it feels like to have pleasure, besides the horrific night when i lost my virginity which i don’t rem. much from nor did i ahvea ny pleasure from it, i didn’t even come…i dont know much about sex other then that, and from porn movies which i watch kinda often. YES Angelina..i can hear your taughts!! *smile* but i do like it to be honest, and won’t hide that.

i just wish i could share that intresst or pleasure somehow with a girl. and not a tv!!!
Is it weird to ask for a girl to be bold to watch me do it or ask her to give me a hand job? or how do you do it if u don’t know the person, it seem like it’s most common thing when it comes to young ppl. me my slef never had the guts to be like that, even if i wanted to i never had the chance or the mental str, to talkt to women when i was younger, how can i find someone like that who wanna tease n pleasure me jsut for the sake of doing it for me now when i couldn’t do it then?

its hard to feel this, and have all these sexual emotions with in me and never get it out, just build it up, emotional jail…writing about it, watching pix, and movies can only do so much… what to do?
someone would say, find a girl friend, ..- i wish i could, but i lack something with in me that many other has, “guts” afraid, many other things i belive which makes it harder for sure…

well nuff said for now,

a few beautys maybe? i love the female bosom!! i once touched one, ty =)

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Californication!

The new era of tv shows? Well it was fun to see David D. Being plain ass bitch for starter, aswell as the show brings us some doubtable subjects and things to talk about,Provoking!! no more censur or drama BS worked around shows, Californication brings us Hank!? What a name by the way..well Hank is a writer..well more like one time hit writer, he wrote the book “a crazy little thing called love” and it hit big, everyone “loved” it, number one best seller…

The funny thing about being famous, ppl just adore u, shout ur name, care so much about uuuuu …that u throw up in the end, puke around. write you letters give you offers, powerful ppl hand you opportunities like breakfast a bad morning..

They even “love” you! Yea looove you….can you feel the word in your mouth? saying it…looove you!!
..that is when u done something good, and hit the top of the mountain, easy money easy fame..hard fall! Boom u are done mate..
And when u are out noone cares, u are out of the picture till u do something else someone loves, during that time nobody cares, noone loves you or shouts your name..noone remember the times…when u actually did something good! And now he is stucked with a writers block! Well like my self to be honest…

I love this show coz i can see my self in him, i got the words worked up good, ppl allways complain about my filthy mouth, but hey´ ..i only live once..like me or just fuck me sideways..dont care!! But i got a problem that “hank” doesnt, i am to nice..allwyas ready to make nice..or being nice in anyway i can and allways “care”…i hate the fucking word “care”…tired of it… sux really…i care toooo fucking much if u ask me…almost nobody else does so why should i “care”? And allways to many “i must do this and that” why? Do what the fucking hell you want and don´t care about it nor look back.

Well even tho i speak like a maniac on speed, i really need to work on being a ironic fucktard towards ppl. Take life with a pinch of salt and just fuck around like everybody else does.

That´s the fun part of the show, we see what ppl do! not what the screenwriters want us to think we see and they do.

Life is like crossing the line between a woman legs..sadly!

P.S And remember girls, my name is “Michael” i am a fucking angel !! D.S